Awww....Come OOoooonnnnn!!!

I'm just gonna whine for a minute here.

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

I wish that I could write music. It really upsets me. Sometimes I try to mess around with Garage Band...but I just don't get it. I don't understand the song writing process I guess...maybe it would help if I played some sort of instrument....yeah---that would probably help. But I don't. And I tried to teach myself to play the piano, but that didn't really work out. I probably would have kept at it...but I have to go over to my parent's house every time I wanted to practice...and that got old real fast :) And I mean...I really like to write (although I don't do it as much as I did in college).  But I still keep my little thought journal where I just write little thoughts composed as poems or prose or just...whatever. It's just feelings and ideas that flowed out of my head onto a paper. And I tried to turn one of them into a song once...but....like I said....I don't know how to write a song! Waaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh.

I hope you all read this in the whiniest voice you could ever imagine.


laurenthevampireslayer whining off....

Silver Linings

I came to the realization that maybe being single is like having a cough.

For me, coughs always take longer to get rid of than just a regular cold. And I hate catching a cough so much more than a cold. But when I have a cough, I always feel like I'm going to just have it forever. Like, "Oh well, I guess I'm just gonna have a cough for the rest of my life!" It's like I all of a sudden can't remember what it feels like to be healthy and to enjoy every day to its fullest, without being groggy from taking too much cough syrup the night before. It's kind of like when you're single. I never really like being single, although I may say things like, "Yeah, it's fun," or "it's not that bad." Deep down I don't think I ever really like it. (although I do think that being alone, and not in a relationship, for a portion of your life is very important in forming your identity and helping you realize who you really are...and really becoming okay with yourself...but after you get past all that...it's not as cool to be alone) But whenever I'm single, I always feel like it's gonna stay that way forever.  I can't remember what it was like to be in a relationship or to be in love. Like, "Oh well, I guess I'm just gonna be single for the rest of my life." But the funny thing about both having a cough and being single, is that the good stuff always sneaks up on you.  One day you wake up and go outside and breathe in the beautiful day and finally realize, "Oh, hey, I don't have that agitating tickle in my throat anymore and my head feels like a normal head and not a balloon head!" And then it's over...the cough is gone! And all this time you thought it would never go away....but it did! Falling in love can sneak up on you in the same manner. And then all of a sudden you don't remember what it felt like to be single! The hard part is that you have to constantly keep up your hope...and faith....that these things will (God-willingly) come through for you one day. And that's the hardest part. But it's also that part that keeps you going. 

So here's to hoping.

laurenthevamireslayer signing off...

So Sweepy.

I just had such an all around great, tiring, fun day yesterday! I'm exhausted! Many funny things happened over the course of last night....maybe I'll tell you about them one day! But not today...because I am sweepy.

I really just love all of my friends.

And I love dancing to oldies.

Hopefully I can take a little cat-nap before I go to work tonight....that store ain't gonna inventory itself! Good gracious, I'm going to be there so late....yikes.

laurenthevampireslayer falling asleep.........

The Sun is Hot.

Oh man! 

The parade was a great success today! It was really fun and there were TONS of people there but, man oh MAN was it hot! But, nevertheless, it was a great, green parade day! 

This parade was so different than the past several years for me.  It was the first St. Patty parade since the Villa Alliance disbanded.  Kinda sad. No mimosas at the boys apartment before the long haul to Perkins Road, buggy in tow. Also, the absence of several people made me a little sad.  Don't get me wrong...I am just looking back and being sad...I wasn't sad for one second today! I had a very fun time with great people...it was absolutely lovely! Just different is all. I always get sad when I look back though...like...what if the good ole days are really gone! They were so much fun. I miss them. Come back, good ole days.....come back.......come....back.....

Well I'm trying to get my energy bar back up so that I can go and get my dance on tonight....long day.....sheesh! I promised someone that I would actually try and dress Mod..........oy vey!

laurenthevampireslayer signing off...

I am boring.

I bought an Oscar the Grouch shirt today. 

And some colorful sandals.

And some food.

I painted my fingernails and toenails.

I watched 2 episodes of Buffy.

Now I'm going to take a shower and read this...

 

Things keep getting boringer and boringer...well...not inside my imagination at least :)

"A stupid person doesn't realize that he lacks intelligence," Beauty replied.  "Fools never know what they're lacking."

laurenthevampireslayer signing off...

Things are looking...

Up!

I feel a lot better today! I'm still coughing a lot, but I feel as if I can go on with my day to day life without grossing people out too much/feeling terrible! So that's exciting. I really don't have much to say today. Things are crazy at work. We are remodeling, and there is just stuff everywhere! Not to mention we have inventory coming up on Sunday...woo hoo! I'm pretty positive that I will like my job even less after the remodel is finished...which is why I must get out...out....out before then! 

In other news...I'm really excited about the St. Patrick's Day Parade on Saturday!! I need to go find me some garb at Target tomorrow! And then Mod night on Saturday night! woo hoooo! gonna be a fun weekend...let's hope I hold up okay.

Hopefully I will get to have coffee (or tea) with my Butts friend tomorrow! I do so very much enjoy our coffee dates! I'm so thankful that I still have some great friends from high school.  We may not get to see each other a lot, but there really is such a strong bond between us that allows us to hang out so nicely whenever we have the privilege to be together! 

Ok well..this has been a little boring...sorry about that! Now I'm gonna go watch some VD, drink some sleepytime tea, and fall asleep (hopefully!).

Peace out suckas.

laurenthevampireslayer signing off.

FRAK!!!!

I know, I know. You're probably thinking, "OH My Goodness! Is that a good frak or a bad frak!??" I mean, I know how much this has been plaguing you over the course of the night! 

Well, you can rest assured.

It is, indeed, a good frak!

I finally finished Battlestar Galactica after what seems like my entire life! (yeah-it took me a long time to finish it-ok!?) I actually really enjoyed the last episode! It didn't make me angry at all! It did everything it needed to. It made me cry a little bit--not too much, it wrapped up everyone's story-lines, and it gave a little zinger at the end that I really enjoyed--and kind of expected. The whole episode I was just waiting for the pin to drop...but it never did....well-not for me at least :D

Nerd rant...over. 

Now....onto the bad frak. And yes...there is a bad frak, unfortunately. Also unfortunate is that the bad frak is in my real life. A bad frakking cough. I have the most awful cough ever.  I mean this thing is like 5th level evil. If it were a Cylon, it would be Cavil.  If it were a Buffy villain, it would be the First. If it were a wizard, it would be Voldemort....I think you get the idea, here! And I am so incredibly upset on account of that.  This is my most favorite time of year! Spring time! The weather is finally warming up, the days are absolutely beautiful.....and I can't enjoy any of it because I am too busy worrying that an organ is gonna come shooting out of my mouth, since I've been hacking so hard! I've been living and breathing tea and soup and cough drops and water and honey and lemon...nothing's working. And this makes me sad. And if I have to miss my favorite parade of the year.....that will make me very sad. I hate being sick. Ugh.

Sick rant...over.

laurenthevampireslayer signing off...