So.

Yeah-double posting it tonight.

I feel a lot better after venting in my last post.

Also, I just went and got a bunch of free gift cards using my chase rewards points! Always a fun thing to do when you're feeling low. Especially since you can get necessity ones (like wal-mart) and fun ones (like amazon, and sbux, and united artists!) See...i can already do some fun stuff for free!

Sometimes I let my emotions get the best of me!
They can't have it....but.....YOU can have the best of me......we got older, but we're still young...we never grew out of this feeling that we won't give ........uuuup....{cue headbanging}

No?

Okay...g'night.

laurenthevampireslayer signing off....again....

Honestly...I don't know how I can begin a day being in a great mood and then end it being in the absolute worst mood i could imagine, not even knowing why I feel this way. I guess it didn't help that I watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. When I get in moods like this, I don't even want people to look at me, so it's really best for me to just go in my room and not leave. At least that's what's best for those around me.

Other than that, I have been really stressed out just thinking about saving money. It doesn't help that it seems like people don't even care that I'm trying to do so. It's like...oh just do this or just do that.  Well if I do everything then I won't even be able to do the thing that I've been planning the entire year for. It's just like when you go on a diet. All of the temptations come out of the woodwork and you're like... since when did people care if I splurged and ate fast food with them!? I guess it's really just my lack of self control and discipline and will power. It's always been so hard for me, because I just want to live life to the fullest. I want to spend time with everyone and I want to do everything that comes up...I don't want to miss out on things. But the fact is, that you just can't do everything that you want. You have to sacrifice things to be able to do the bigger things on your lists. So...sorry, everyone, if I bail out on lots of side things this year. I have the hugest desire to go back to Europe. And it's not gonna happen if I'm just careless and carefree all the time...as much as I want to be. This year is just flying by and things are popping up all over the freaking place.
I've just gotta break it down.
I have two major things on my agenda for the year, and I gotta work to get there.
And I'm gonna try not to be a fuddy dud as much of the time that I can...but when it comes down to  it...I got a whole lot of money to save.
So don't be angry at me if I pass on fun stuff, please!
I just wanna travel the world again.
And see art.
And be inspired.

I'm gonna go read now.
I really wish I had some chocolate to eat.

laurenthevampireslayer signing off...

Go away. Go away. And leave me on my own.

Pretty uneventful day today.

Sometimes I make the conscious decision to go and sit in this little corner in the locker room when I have a small break.  I do this because I want to play on my phone for a few minutes, uninterrupted, and chill out for a few. I did this tonight and can I tell you that people would not stop talking to me. Like...I'm sitting in the corner minding my own business...what about this picture says "Hey! Come talk to meeeeee!"? This probably sounds mean...but I need my little moments of alone time. They give me sanity. And I just like to be a loner sometimes......so sue me!

Only two more days of work before the weekend! Yippeeeeeeeeee!!

Also....why is my dog the cutest thing in the freaking world!? I just want to hug her all day and all night!

Just some random snippets tonight.

Ok...goodnight world.

laurenthevampireslayer signing off...

You look so nice in soft and kind eyes.

I've been listening to Jonezetta a lot during the past couple of days. Pretty random, I know. But it was one of those things where I just remembered this really cute song from their latest album...or it came on my shuffle or something...anyway, it made me want to listen to them. I just love this little song...it always just reminds me of laying around with someone that you care about doing absolutely nothing. And it's just sweet. I like sweet stuff.

Ugh. I was trying to post the song...but I can't do it! Anyway...it's called Fur Coat (Roaming Like Animals) from their album, Cruel to Be Young.

That one.

So....yeah.

I love when people call you at the exact right moment. I was laying in my bed earlier, after I got home from work, because I've just been exhausted today for some reason, and I was just playing on the computer and trying to think of something really bad that I could eat for dinner...because I've just been wanting to eat bad food all the time this week! Anyway, as I was doing this, I get a phone call from Olivia and she asks, "Have you eaten dinner yet?" To which I replied eagerly, "NOPE! I sure haven't!!" And then she said, "You wanna go to Carretas!?" And I said, "Hell yes, I wanna go to Carreta's!" Haha. Okay...I think you get the picture. Perfect timing. And so we ate our delicious and cheesy dinner and then went to buy sour candies soon after! I finally remembered to get The Fall from her, so I can continue my gross, scary vampirical journey with ease!

Yep. That one. 

Excited to get started on that sucker. 

I got a beautiful teacup today, which was meant to be a Christmas present from my good friend, and was also meant to be passed along to me by my other good friends that she left it with, but they did not pass it on to me until just now.  It is purty.

Also...this came out today!

 

WHAAAAAAATTTT!!!???

SO AWESOME.

CAN'T WAIT.

YAY PICTURES!

laurenthevampireslayer signing off...

Bizarro Land!

What a nice day!

Crawfish, friends, gooey brownies, a swamp tour, a bird rescue, and the birth of a new reality show!
And lots of other nice things before and in between :)
Oh, how I love my big, crazy family!

In other news, I'm watching Sister Wives with Ashleigh (the polygamist witch) right now and this show is so bizarre! I don't know if I could actually watch it.  These people are warped.  I still don't understand what would possess people to be in a relationship like that! And can I just say, he don't look all that awesome. His hair and facial hair make him remind me of a demon on Buffy.

Now, in other reality news, they were making lots of grilled cheeses on the finale of Jersey Shore, so me and Ashleigh coaxed Adrian into making us some after! Score! (It really didn't take all that much coaxing :)

And now I'm sleepy and a little said that my funday Sunday off is over :(

Until next time...

laurenthevampireslayer signing off....

March Madness

People are maniacs!
Long, messy day today. Thankfully, I love all of the people that work in my little, cramped area! Or else I would probably explode from annoyance! Some people can just be SO rude, both verbally and in the way they COMPLETELY TRASH everything in our entire store like they have never been out of their house before! Get a life, people! Stop digging your holes of debt and go spend time with people you care about...unless you actually NEED something! SHEESH.

Wow....sorry about that, guys! It just comes out sometimes.

In other news....well, actually, there really is no other news. That's kinda sad. Hmmm....let's see....There are so many comics that I want to read!!! Agh! I wish I could just read them all day and all night long! And it sucks because I'm such a collector-type-a person, so of course I want to buy them all as I read them...and them suckers ain't cheap! But I just love to own the things that I love, ya know?

Can't wait to eat some crawfishes tomorrow! I am very excited about this. So incredibly glad that I don't have to work and can go hang out with the bestest people in the world!

Also....I'm obsessed with Angry Birds! It got me!

laurenthevampireslayer signing off...

Whoopsies.

I forgot to blog today!

Well I bowled tonight with some cool peeps which was real fun!
When I left the bowling alley, there was a note on the door of my car (my first thought was that it was from Charlie cuz he used to leave me notes on my car at LSU..har har) that read:

I f***ing love your bumper sticker
I just wanted to tell you that.
props.
-The Rev

hehehe
i love when that kind of crap happens!
I wish I could have been privileged enough to meet this so called "The Rev."
I just love a crazy random happenstance!

ok...i guess that's all i got for tonight...i'm pretty darn sleepy.
Looking forward to some soft, delicious rolls tomorrow!

laurenthevampireslayer signing off...

Round and round we go.

I got unnecessarily stressed this morning, which set the mood for my day.

Love when that happens.

Which then turned to me getting down on myself.

Also great.

Sometimes I just feel so horrible.

Like I'll never amount to anything.

Girls night helps.

Sorry to be such a bummerhole.

laurenthevampireslayer...................

Green Tea Frappucino is a Delight to my Stomach.

The fish. 

The fish.

The fish.

He wished he were a gnome.

So strong and proud, tried and true. 

Free to roam the lawns and climb on shoes.

Free to do whatever he pleased.

Oh, what he would ever give to play in the leaves!

Morning, noon, and night he dreamed

of his gnome garden,

And his gnome family.

Of his gnome home.

But, alas, he was merely a low down, dirty fish.

Doomed to murky waters or a dumb, round dish.

With no hope of those leaves.

No hope of that home.

No hope to ever be a gnome.

laurenthevampireslayer signing off...

Awww....Come OOoooonnnnn!!!

I'm just gonna whine for a minute here.

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

I wish that I could write music. It really upsets me. Sometimes I try to mess around with Garage Band...but I just don't get it. I don't understand the song writing process I guess...maybe it would help if I played some sort of instrument....yeah---that would probably help. But I don't. And I tried to teach myself to play the piano, but that didn't really work out. I probably would have kept at it...but I have to go over to my parent's house every time I wanted to practice...and that got old real fast :) And I mean...I really like to write (although I don't do it as much as I did in college).  But I still keep my little thought journal where I just write little thoughts composed as poems or prose or just...whatever. It's just feelings and ideas that flowed out of my head onto a paper. And I tried to turn one of them into a song once...but....like I said....I don't know how to write a song! Waaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh.

I hope you all read this in the whiniest voice you could ever imagine.


laurenthevampireslayer whining off....

Silver Linings

I came to the realization that maybe being single is like having a cough.

For me, coughs always take longer to get rid of than just a regular cold. And I hate catching a cough so much more than a cold. But when I have a cough, I always feel like I'm going to just have it forever. Like, "Oh well, I guess I'm just gonna have a cough for the rest of my life!" It's like I all of a sudden can't remember what it feels like to be healthy and to enjoy every day to its fullest, without being groggy from taking too much cough syrup the night before. It's kind of like when you're single. I never really like being single, although I may say things like, "Yeah, it's fun," or "it's not that bad." Deep down I don't think I ever really like it. (although I do think that being alone, and not in a relationship, for a portion of your life is very important in forming your identity and helping you realize who you really are...and really becoming okay with yourself...but after you get past all that...it's not as cool to be alone) But whenever I'm single, I always feel like it's gonna stay that way forever.  I can't remember what it was like to be in a relationship or to be in love. Like, "Oh well, I guess I'm just gonna be single for the rest of my life." But the funny thing about both having a cough and being single, is that the good stuff always sneaks up on you.  One day you wake up and go outside and breathe in the beautiful day and finally realize, "Oh, hey, I don't have that agitating tickle in my throat anymore and my head feels like a normal head and not a balloon head!" And then it's over...the cough is gone! And all this time you thought it would never go away....but it did! Falling in love can sneak up on you in the same manner. And then all of a sudden you don't remember what it felt like to be single! The hard part is that you have to constantly keep up your hope...and faith....that these things will (God-willingly) come through for you one day. And that's the hardest part. But it's also that part that keeps you going. 

So here's to hoping.

laurenthevamireslayer signing off...

So Sweepy.

I just had such an all around great, tiring, fun day yesterday! I'm exhausted! Many funny things happened over the course of last night....maybe I'll tell you about them one day! But not today...because I am sweepy.

I really just love all of my friends.

And I love dancing to oldies.

Hopefully I can take a little cat-nap before I go to work tonight....that store ain't gonna inventory itself! Good gracious, I'm going to be there so late....yikes.

laurenthevampireslayer falling asleep.........

The Sun is Hot.

Oh man! 

The parade was a great success today! It was really fun and there were TONS of people there but, man oh MAN was it hot! But, nevertheless, it was a great, green parade day! 

This parade was so different than the past several years for me.  It was the first St. Patty parade since the Villa Alliance disbanded.  Kinda sad. No mimosas at the boys apartment before the long haul to Perkins Road, buggy in tow. Also, the absence of several people made me a little sad.  Don't get me wrong...I am just looking back and being sad...I wasn't sad for one second today! I had a very fun time with great people...it was absolutely lovely! Just different is all. I always get sad when I look back though...like...what if the good ole days are really gone! They were so much fun. I miss them. Come back, good ole days.....come back.......come....back.....

Well I'm trying to get my energy bar back up so that I can go and get my dance on tonight....long day.....sheesh! I promised someone that I would actually try and dress Mod..........oy vey!

laurenthevampireslayer signing off...

I am boring.

I bought an Oscar the Grouch shirt today. 

And some colorful sandals.

And some food.

I painted my fingernails and toenails.

I watched 2 episodes of Buffy.

Now I'm going to take a shower and read this...

 

Things keep getting boringer and boringer...well...not inside my imagination at least :)

"A stupid person doesn't realize that he lacks intelligence," Beauty replied.  "Fools never know what they're lacking."

laurenthevampireslayer signing off...

Things are looking...

Up!

I feel a lot better today! I'm still coughing a lot, but I feel as if I can go on with my day to day life without grossing people out too much/feeling terrible! So that's exciting. I really don't have much to say today. Things are crazy at work. We are remodeling, and there is just stuff everywhere! Not to mention we have inventory coming up on Sunday...woo hoo! I'm pretty positive that I will like my job even less after the remodel is finished...which is why I must get out...out....out before then! 

In other news...I'm really excited about the St. Patrick's Day Parade on Saturday!! I need to go find me some garb at Target tomorrow! And then Mod night on Saturday night! woo hoooo! gonna be a fun weekend...let's hope I hold up okay.

Hopefully I will get to have coffee (or tea) with my Butts friend tomorrow! I do so very much enjoy our coffee dates! I'm so thankful that I still have some great friends from high school.  We may not get to see each other a lot, but there really is such a strong bond between us that allows us to hang out so nicely whenever we have the privilege to be together! 

Ok well..this has been a little boring...sorry about that! Now I'm gonna go watch some VD, drink some sleepytime tea, and fall asleep (hopefully!).

Peace out suckas.

laurenthevampireslayer signing off.

FRAK!!!!

I know, I know. You're probably thinking, "OH My Goodness! Is that a good frak or a bad frak!??" I mean, I know how much this has been plaguing you over the course of the night! 

Well, you can rest assured.

It is, indeed, a good frak!

I finally finished Battlestar Galactica after what seems like my entire life! (yeah-it took me a long time to finish it-ok!?) I actually really enjoyed the last episode! It didn't make me angry at all! It did everything it needed to. It made me cry a little bit--not too much, it wrapped up everyone's story-lines, and it gave a little zinger at the end that I really enjoyed--and kind of expected. The whole episode I was just waiting for the pin to drop...but it never did....well-not for me at least :D

Nerd rant...over. 

Now....onto the bad frak. And yes...there is a bad frak, unfortunately. Also unfortunate is that the bad frak is in my real life. A bad frakking cough. I have the most awful cough ever.  I mean this thing is like 5th level evil. If it were a Cylon, it would be Cavil.  If it were a Buffy villain, it would be the First. If it were a wizard, it would be Voldemort....I think you get the idea, here! And I am so incredibly upset on account of that.  This is my most favorite time of year! Spring time! The weather is finally warming up, the days are absolutely beautiful.....and I can't enjoy any of it because I am too busy worrying that an organ is gonna come shooting out of my mouth, since I've been hacking so hard! I've been living and breathing tea and soup and cough drops and water and honey and lemon...nothing's working. And this makes me sad. And if I have to miss my favorite parade of the year.....that will make me very sad. I hate being sick. Ugh.

Sick rant...over.

laurenthevampireslayer signing off...

Quest for the day...

Yep. Here I am...waitin til the last minute to do my blogging! It's just more fun that way.

Well, my quest for this day, the Ides of March, was to get rid of this awful, awful cough and to finish Battlestar Galactica.  At this point, I may have done one of the two so far, but I probably wont be able to tell until tomorrow.  I did get the chance to try a Neti Pot! Great experience...very strange, but great, for sure! Gotta flush those sinuses! On the other hand, I have two episodes of Battlestar left, and I am a little nervous to venture on! One of my friends, whose opinion on entertainment I hold in high esteem, told me that maybe I shouldn't watch the last two episodes. What!? Obviously I cannot do that, just like I cannot not read the Buffy comics even though I'm afraid that I won't like them. I gotta see these things through. Even though they may be mundane, entertainment things, it's still seeing them through, and not quitting on them.  Maybe this loyalty will, in turn, bleed into other aspects of my life that are a bit more important than entertainment. One can only hope.

Well I am about to embark on these last two episodes, now. Wish me luck. I guess I will word-vomit my feelings about the series on here tomorrow.

Hopefully this 30 days of blogging that I've committed to won't drive me, or any of you for that matter, nutso :)

I'll end with this quote that I liked from one of the episodes I watched today.

"It may feel like Hell, but sometimes lost is where you need to be.  Just because you don't know your direction doesn't mean you don't have one."

laurenthevampireslayer signing off...

We're All Mad Here.

The moon was a Cheshire Cat tonight! By far my favorite kind of moon there is. Also the most distracting when I'm trying to drive home.  

Obviously I went home and put on my Cheshire Cat sleep shirt, and am now cozy in my bed. :)
You know...that cheshire cat said some interesting things:

"Every adventure requires a first step. Trite, but true, even here."

 

"The proper order of things is often a mystery to me. You, too?"

"Only a few find the way, some don't recognize it when they do - some... don't ever want to."

How bout that?
And we really are all mad here on this planet. Each in their own way. Mad mad mad. Good and bad, but all mad!

Alrighty.

BSG time...

laurenthevampireslayer signing off...

...Nine, Ten, Never Sleep Again.

 Oh my. What a great movie!

And this is possibly the best Freddy poster I have ever seen! (for Nightmare on Elm Street 5: The Dream Child)

Just a random note since I am currently watching Never Sleep Again: The Elm Street Legacy.

Woohoo!

laurenthevampireslayer signing off....